Dark Moments

When I awoke yesterday morning the house was in darkness, the sun had not yet made it's way above the horizon. Through the night the power had gone out so no light could I find within our house. I could not see what time it was but stumbled my way the the bathroom for a morning wee walk.

I looked outside to see not a street light to be seen, so was comforted to know it was not just our house which was in the dark but the neighbourhood as well. Some how that gave me peace of mined to know that although I was in the dark, others were in the same situation.

My hubby slept a soothing sleep, unaware of what I felt. I listened to his every breath till at last he woke. He scratch his head when the light did not work and the clock was blank not telling the time. He stumble for his wee walk too, then looked at me and said "the power is out". "Well I never it sure is" I said but had to ask, "we did pay the power bill I hope". He answered in the affirmative and began to snore in sleep again.

To wake with this darkness all around had sparked a note of fear and anxiety within my brain. I could not settle and go to sleep. What good it did me to lay there away and ponder on all the darkest things. All the things that make me sad seemed so close and gaining power. Pain struck in every joint, fear and anxiety began to mount. I finally reach for some medication that would help, then laid back and Prayed for all I was worth.

"Dear Lord I ask that all is well, make my fears diminish so I can sleep. Let me think of nicer things. Let me smile and give me wings. Bless all those I love you know. Dear Lord even Bless the ones I find it hard to forgive but let them know, that so often an action produces far reaching pain. Lord I do not really understand why I have to live in such fear. But let me live a life that is full and make it touch another's soul. Let me smile and let me laugh and Lord let me walk my earthly Path."

With that prayer said, peace came to me, I relaxed and fell right off to sleep. Was it the medication? or was it the chat to God? I think the medication may have worked but without my words with God above I do not think it would have been enough.

So Lord I say Thank YOU for listening to my words, and thanks for being right by my side in all I do.

Keep the Light on the horizon