A Moment that affect the rest of YOUR life

Edward Munch depiction of The Scream vividly tells of a life shattering event. Something which shakes the very core of your existence. How? Why? Would something like this happen to ME? What have I done that I might deserve such a catastrophe? The scarlet horizon shows the impending gloom and the swirly dark waters seem to be engulfing your very shadow. There is no escape, you must face this moment in time. How you will deal with the moment will be your only pathway through this ordeal.

A child is given to you by birth and taken by death. We have some control over the birth part, but we can do nothing to stop a death. How could have I known what was in store for our family. What could I do differently that would have a better outcome?

There are no easy answers you just have to get in the boat called grief and paddle your way down the river of sadness. Sometimes you feel the sadness is grabbing for you. To let go and let it take over would be far easier than to continue the journey from that moment to the next. Three other children are dependent on your strength. One man who will say beside you through it all needs you. Just how you can keep from falling apart?

That is when it is one step at a time. One small step today will lead you on to the moment in time that will help you grow. Your body is weak and just wants to lie down and die, but life does have to continue. Sure thoughts of ending your life will emerge. But when the going gets difficult that is when the growing become the life long moments of learning. You have learnt that every moment is so precious. That moment of holding her one last time will elude you, but you know that there are others that will be part of your life, and they need your holding tight at time. YOU know how to hold tight. But then you have to be able to let go of anything you hold dear, for all this is only on loan. We will move on when the time is right to what is ours for eternity one day, and in that moment we will know all those Moments meant something REAL.